Great Week of School

Life in general is going well. School though is going surprisingly well though. I am taking a business Law class and a Computer Information System's class; neither of which I know a ton about. I do know a little from work, but not the in depth stuff. So far though I'm doing awesome in my classes. Now it may be that the basic stuff I know is what would be covered in the first few chapters - but it sure sets me up nice for the rest of the quarter. What I've really been thinking a lot about though is how hard a time I have relating to my teachers this quarter. Last quarter wasn't too bad. I didn't have to read to much into what teachers meant or said. This quarter though so much of what they say seems off topic and beating around the bush. My business law class for example rarely gives a concrete answer to a question. Part of that I think is the topic - because there is obviously two sides to every argument - but once something has been decided the precedent is there and that's what he should go on as fact right? This is long and boring enough - I just hadn't written in a while and wanted to rant a little - so I did.

New Journey

So tomorrow morning I start on a new journey. One I've started before and without much success. I'm hoping that this time is different - well - I'm hoping that the outcome is different. I know that almost every thing else is different. I'm married now, with two young boys. I have a great job now (one that is paying for me to go to school - how often does that happen now a days?) I've had success in other area's of my life - mainly us building and buying our first house. I just feel different. But in a lot of ways I feel so much the same.
I still don't love to work - I do it because I have to. I still love to stay up way to late a play video games. I of course still don't like to get up early to do anything - much less go to school. And I still find the task of completing a college degree to be very daunting.
So what will happen? Will my new differences make me so much better a student? Or will my old and bad habits get in the way of college success again?
I don't really think there is an answer for this - and although I think all of these things will play into my success or failure - I think they can fit in either category. I think my success will be based on me learning and developing certain talents I haven't developed yet. I think college for me will be about learning how to manage my time better. Learning how to get the most out of my time while I'm doing a certain task and compartmentalizing.
I'm excited, I'm nervous, and I'm scared. of what? I'm not really sure. It's a journey that I've never seen through and never gotten very far on. I know I just have to take it one day at a time and one class at a time. When I'm done, and if... yes if, I get that piece of paper in my hand that says I completed my college degree, I'll probably be excited, nervous and scared - of a new journey that I won't know much about.
Such is life - now it's off to bed, gotta rest up they say. That's not something that I've ever been very good at - but I guess now's as good as any to try new things.